Not Quite Ready for Acceptance

Still angry
trying not to let it
poison me

I wish you would 
just listen

Hear my pain

Maybe it would 
get better
go away

If you would just listen

I could tell you how I feel

I might yell, cry, scream

but it would be out 
in the air
instead of wasting me away

The truth is never the enemy

Lies kill and truth saves

I can't pretend to be okay

I can't pretend nothing is wrong

I can't

I just can't

Anger

Wanted
Coddled
Sheltered
at the expense of the rest

Should have called
done 
something
different

I am different, too

Stronger
capable
able to take it

Fuck your sadness
Fuck your misplaced anger
Fuck your blinders

Made my mountains into molehills
my beauty into bleakness

Where is the heart?

I'm ringing and it's not
home